My 30th Birthday

I have so many blogs up till now and all of them are dead. And yet here I am with another new one! So be it I guess. I hope I can be able to document as much as I can on my 30's (which I kinda doubt I could based on my previous history but we shall see).

The country is moving to endemic phase from Covid-19 pandemic. But I am still cautious of going out because of Rei who is unvaccinated and also my mum who does not have a pair of good lungs in general. 

So my 30th birthday celebration today was just a very simple one at home. First time not having a cake and candle to blow at! I am still feeling weird about it but I guess this may be one of the adult things. You may or may not get a cake during your birthday. But I did receive a bouquet of roses from Yang, a pint of Baskin Robin world class chocolate and Jamoca almond fudge ice cream from Amanda and Simon which was super tasty, 3 bottles of kombucha (my first!) from Yi Yeen and angpows from my parents. Dad also bought KFC for me because I requested for it. Grateful for friends and family who remember or care to give and also not give. I need to start gifting people too! Maybe on this Christmas. 

Yang could not be with me during my birthday as Rei and I are currently living in Kajang. The main reason is I want to protect Rei from exposure of virus as much as I can right now before I am more comfortable with Yang's parents going out everyday for social gatherings. Also the house at Shah Alam is not really ideal for a crawling baby and I would also be able to work more if I stay in Kajang for now. We are also looking forward to getting our own place soon which is all depending on Yang's work. Hopefully things will look better in the future in his work. I am also in need of a solid direction for my work.

So today I was feeling weird and sad a little because I could not just turn back time to being a 20s. Time will always push you forward whether you like it or not. I actually feel fearful because I am afraid I am too old for anything else. Can I still be successful in my 30s? Logically, of course I can, but I need to accept that maybe. That I still can! And well, researches do point that people find the most joy when they were in their mid-30s. 

Joy. I need to seek God back in my life. It is always an ongoing process. I pray I would never give up or God does not give up on me. If in my 30s, I can be fruitful in Christ, that will be my greatest joy.

Starting a new decade being a wife, a mum, a daughter, an entrepreneur, a friend, and a servant and child of God!