Blood and 'Wink'

Tonight I feel like a bad mom. 

This evening, Rei pooped out a bit of blood. My mum said maybe its because of all the cheese and fried egg I gave her yesterday. Then she said she should be eating soupy food because its less heaty and easier on the stomach. I feel sad. I wonder whether the blood thing is really because of that or its just her lacking water or was already irritated by the corn she ate the day before yesterday.

Rei is also having problem with her eyes. Recently she started closing one of her eyes, more on her right. She also keep rubbing and sometimes open and close her eyes rapidly as if there's something bothering her. During her paed visit 3 days ago, doctor said Rei's eyes are okay. But perhaps the examination was a bit too hasty and she isn't a paediatric ophthalmologist. So we are going to set an appointment with one at Sunway. I wonder whether it's her new body wash (MooGoo) that's causing her eye problem because I feel the body wash has a bit of a funny smell. Rei's back also started developing rough skin and red spots. So I'm going to change it back to Carrie first.

I cooked beef with cumin for Rei's lunch. When she saw the meat on her plate, she gave it a smirk like thinking....this food is not going to be good. But when she took the first bite, she had a surprise look and started to be more serious at eating. Started using two hands. Haha! Finished everything and the sweet potato and melon (i think). Good meal.

I did some work today. Suddenly feel like I need to make my career work no matter what. I need to earn money for the future. There's just no excuse anymore. I need confidence and focus. To be confident that I can do it. It's not too late. Just need a change of strategy. I know if I can, I don't want to go work for someone else after tasting this life. Hopefully I can afford to have this lifestyle. Hence, my own business!