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One of Rei's favourite books is Engineering for Babies. Today when I pointed at a rocket picture and asked what's this, she said kocket 🤣

 I think there is a lot of rage, dissatisfaction and pride in me right now and I just have no one to talk to about which sometimes I don't want to share too much of this with because of some reasons.  My mum ended up not selling the shophouse and is having hope of me having a tuition centre on the first floor. Well, even though I did not discount the fact that I do want to teach and have the thought of giving tuition in the future, I don't like that it's being planned out for me. I feel like being suffocated again and is so under the grip of her. I want to be free and make my own decision and live with my own decision. But I feel so stuck under her, still having the need to stay under the same roof until the house is done in a couple of months.  While I am half excited about having a tuition business, I am also half depressed because it's been decided for me. Such a conflict of feelings. But I hope it all works out well. Now I have to get over my feelings soon so I can ...

Ugh. I hate using this blogger app so much. Just lost all the things I typed and now I have to re-type.  Rei had a more than usual irritable day today. It's probably caused by her teething. She got upset easier, threw a a tantrum when I took away the soap that I let her hold for 1 to 2 minutes when I was washing her up at night. In the end, she contorted her body until her clothes were wet from the tap water. She also cried so pitifully when I was diaper changing her after and putting pyjamas on her. She is constipated today. Put her on potty for at least 5 times but nothing. And then she pooped a smaller than coin size poop in her diaper.. And it caused her diaper rash. Not only that, she fell on her face and also accidentally smacked herself with my phone which caused red marks on her face. Cried. She also chewed on the steel of the shelves and the marble table. What a day! Rei also did something that amazed but also low key horrified me. She climbed up the stairs to the first fl...

Today can be said to be a momentous moment in my family. Finally, after 12 years of living here, we put up our house number sign!!! Procrastination and indecisiveness to the max its just so legendary wtf!! I was beginning form 5 when we moved in and now I even have a kid. Haha! Rei had a blast walking in the front compartment. It's her first time. The marble tiles are quite uneven though I was worried she would fall and hurt her knees. But amazingly she controlled herself pretty well albeit being shaky and swaying here and there. Plus she walked really fast around.  This might be her first time looking intently at grasses. She didn't step on it though and I also didn't encourage her because I think the grass has poop. She walked for maybe 30 minutes and I grew tired, not her. Hahahahha! So against her will, I brought her in. Upset lo.  So parents not around for a few hours and I had Rei all to myself. H...

So Rei recovered pretty fast. The day after the incident I could see the cut was barely opening anymore! Very fast. Glad that we didn't waste money going to the hospital. I'm also grateful for God and impressed by His wisdom in creating children to be so hardy because they are more accident-prone. I didn't update the blog again because sometimes I slept early, shopping and also then too many to update upon. Same as the previous time! Will just update Rei's funny doings. Mum say when Rei entered the wet kitchen, which she was not supposed to, she said Bip and then U turn back. XD probably it's because she is telling herself that she cannot enter here..if not...get beaten. Because my mum always say "beat" when she "punished" her for wrongdoings. Not sure whether it's okay for her to feel "fear" like this. I don't think she fears though. It's just.....a reminder to herself. Today before I exercised, I put on my socks and then m...

Today Rei cut her upper chin right below her lip! She was holding one of my hair accessories she discovered on the living room table and then accidentally slipped on my yoga mat and banged her chin at the table corner of all places. Luckily I had placed a protective cover. If not it could have been much worse. Also lucky that she didn't hit her eyes or teeth which is gonna be catastrophic.  (the edge. Can still see the blood) I was upstairs when it happened. Mum yelled for me. When I went down, I saw blood everywhere on her mouth and my mum's thigh and hands. Didn't expect it to be this bad. Applied ice compression and that's when I saw how deep the cut is. It's also serrated. Mum said when it happened, Rei was so in pain that she arched her body and screwed up her face. Initially we decided to bring her to the hospital because her kajang clinic recommended that course of action. But we had to wait till after lunch hour and so during the wait...