30's

 I think there is a lot of rage, dissatisfaction and pride in me right now and I just have no one to talk to about which sometimes I don't want to share too much of this with because of some reasons.  My mum ended up not selling the shophouse and is having hope of me having a tuition centre on the first floor. Well, even though I did not discount the fact that I do want to teach and have the thought of giving tuition in the future, I don't like that it's being planned out for me. I feel like being suffocated again and is so under the grip of her. I want to be free and make my own decision and live with my own decision. But I feel so stuck under her, still having the need to stay under the same roof until the house is done in a couple of months.  While I am half excited about having a tuition business, I am also half depressed because it's been decided for me. Such a conflict of feelings. But I hope it all works out well. Now I have to get over my feelings soon so I can ...

Ugh. I hate using this blogger app so much. Just lost all the things I typed and now I have to re-type.  Rei had a more than usual irritable day today. It's probably caused by her teething. She got upset easier, threw a a tantrum when I took away the soap that I let her hold for 1 to 2 minutes when I was washing her up at night. In the end, she contorted her body until her clothes were wet from the tap water. She also cried so pitifully when I was diaper changing her after and putting pyjamas on her. She is constipated today. Put her on potty for at least 5 times but nothing. And then she pooped a smaller than coin size poop in her diaper.. And it caused her diaper rash. Not only that, she fell on her face and also accidentally smacked herself with my phone which caused red marks on her face. Cried. She also chewed on the steel of the shelves and the marble table. What a day! Rei also did something that amazed but also low key horrified me. She climbed up the stairs to the first fl...